A purse full of lipstick, real life not included.

When I was little, I used to always carry a purse around pretending to be a "big girl". It would just have random stuff that I found around the house in it, usually bits of paper and some toys. Also lipstick. There would always, always be lipstick in my purse because my mom had lipstick in her purse, and I wanted to be just like her. It was almost always a plastic tube of fake lipstick, but the idea was there. I couldn't wait until the day when I would be a real grown up who carried around a purse and wore lipstick and did really cool grownup stuff.

Well here I am some 18-odd years later, five  years past the age where I am legally considered an adult and two years past the age where I can legally drink. I own a purse that I use semi frequently, and if you open it up you will find my wallet, phone, keys (sometimes. Today was not one of those days, I locked myself out. Whoops.), and.............a tube of lipstick in a very pretty shade of mauve (also, what the shit kind of a color name is mauve?! It doesn't even look like a real word). I just realized this the other day and it absolutely blew my mind. Like when people look at me, they see an adult. A grown up woman doing grown up woman stuff carrying around her purse that totally has lipstick in it. There's just one little thing....

I always thought that by the time I had real lipstick in my real purse, I would also have my life together.