Sunday, October 6, 2013

A purse full of lipstick, real life not included.

When I was little, I used to always carry a purse around pretending to be a "big girl". It would just have random stuff that I found around the house in it, usually bits of paper and some toys. Also lipstick. There would always, always be lipstick in my purse because my mom had lipstick in her purse, and I wanted to be just like her. It was almost always a plastic tube of fake lipstick, but the idea was there. I couldn't wait until the day when I would be a real grown up who carried around a purse and wore lipstick and did really cool grownup stuff.

Well here I am some 18-odd years later, five  years past the age where I am legally considered an adult and two years past the age where I can legally drink. I own a purse that I use semi frequently, and if you open it up you will find my wallet, phone, keys (sometimes. Today was not one of those days, I locked myself out. Whoops.), and.............a tube of lipstick in a very pretty shade of mauve (also, what the shit kind of a color name is mauve?! It doesn't even look like a real word). I just realized this the other day and it absolutely blew my mind. Like when people look at me, they see an adult. A grown up woman doing grown up woman stuff carrying around her purse that totally has lipstick in it. There's just one little thing....

I always thought that by the time I had real lipstick in my real purse, I would also have my life together.

1 comment:

  1. I'm pretty sure no one ever has their life together! My 'I'm an adult!' moment was when I was at Vince's work Christmas party, and we were all having drinks in the kitchen, and the boss's kid came out of the room with her friend to ask if they could watch a movie in her room, then quickly scuddled away. I was like, 'Holy shit, when my dad would have parties I would totally do the same thing, and thought all his friends were so cool drinking and hangout out. Now I'M that cool person!' Except this whole situation is not as cool as I assumed it was as a kid and vodka is not that great. It's a rather weird experience to be an adult and not realize it.